It was too pretty a day to be sad
So she tied a red ribbon in her hair
and she laughed
Even though the walls kept shrinking
and the roof kept crumbling
She laughed
Even as the cold rain fell
and as the darkness grew
She laughed
Even as the world began to fade
and the snow began to fall
And then
When the last one was gone
She turned
put the chairs on the tables
Locked the doors
and sat down to cry
He walks straight to his room,
head slightly bowed.
Eyes on the floor.
No one is home.
But just in case...
Locking the door behind him
he sits on the floor
and sighs
Looking down at his once white school uniform
he decides
changing would be a good idea
He learned a long time ago
Blood on his clothes freaked his mother out
Even his father
when he himself wasn't the reason.
She walks into the house cautiously
announces her arrival
Is puzzled when no one replies
Then remembers they went out to see a movie
Sighs
Telling them about her grades could wait
Die another day starts playing in her head and she bangs her head against the wall to drive it out.
Stupid pop culture addict neighbors!
Waking up early
+
New clothes
+
Getting to class in time
+
Being hauled up in class and answering the question put to you
-
Being asked to prepare a case analysis for no reason at all
+
Amma's
+
Concern
-
Being yelled at by a professor and threatened with the "strictest disciplinary action"
+
One normal conversation with a professor who you were certain was going to kill you
+
Smoking with a few friends
+
Getting to the shop just as it is closing
+
Getting out of a sweater
+
Chips and orange juice
+
The internet
That's 9 episodes done.
Two girls end up sitting together on a train to Tokyo and find out they have loads in common, including their name - Nana...
They run into each other again when they're hunting for a place to live and decide to share a flat. The anime is stunning because of many reasons, especially the graphics and more importantly, the sound track. Wow. Whoever is Nana-the-singer's voice actor is stunning.
As for the "Nanas". They're both 20 years old. And they're both shifting to Tokyo. But that's pretty much where the similarity ends.
Nana 1 has strawberry blond hair and big hazel/brown/golden eyes. She's always excited and completely dependent on someone or the other. She's naive and child-like and falls in love with any one who is older and more "dependable" (whatever that means!). She's also been described as spoilt and selfish, but it really is in a harmless sorta way. As Nana 2 says, Nana 1 is like a puppy. "Friendly and obedient but always wanting atention". She's "run away" (sort of) from home and come to Tokyo so that she can be with her best friend and the guy she's in love with.
Nana 2 on the other hand, is... well... For starters, she has short dark hair. As for her eyes, they can be gray, blue, brown... Its really quite strange, but also somehow endearing. When she's upset, her eyes seem to go all wide and a light shade of gray. When she's angry or depressed, they're almost black. I dunno. She seems to be the more responsible of the two, but I've only begun the series and I think she's just as spaz in her own way. She always has a cigarette dangling from her lips and wears a leather jacket almost everywhere. Oh yes, and she is a vocalist for the recently disbanded "Blast".
What I love about the series is that there are so many little moments and scenes and words that just hit you, and you know exactly what it would feel like to be there, you know? Nana 1 has been narrating most of the episodes till now, and she sounds so ... grown up, and slightly sad... It draws you deeper into the show coz you keep wondering what happened to them.
Another reason to watch this anime. Ren. Hot. *grins* (For the guys, the two Nana's running around should be enough!)
As for the series itself, the amount of detail is refreshing. There's always something to make you grin. For example, episode 9, when Yasu is listening to Nana sing over the cell phone, he lights up right before a sign that reads "No Smoking". And he's a lawyer. *laughs*
I can not wait to find out what happens to everyone on the show.
More updates as I get the time.
Cya!
^_^
P.S. T_T. I know I totally can't write a review! Gomen Nasai. *bows* *teary eyed* I aim to improve!!! Anyhow, now I'm off to watch the first episode of Vampire Knight! Later!
Great.
I flunked land-law. That means I'm definitely failing history. Consti was always a sure thing.
Gah!!!
Three repeats once again!
*sigh*
These hols have not been nearly as long as they should have been. I don't wanna go back. Its not that I hate Law school. I just don't want to spend more time there. Then again, I don't have any other place to go. No wait. That has to be rephrased. I don't have any other place I want to go. Not anyplace define-able anyhow.
Dad left for some place today morning. He'll be back only after I've left, so I said goodbye. He said I had been "good" these hols. Whatever that means. But yeah, I do kinda get it. I have been 'good' these hols.
Spent lot of time at home. Gave the dog a bath. Filled water. Spent an entire day at the mall with my parents. There were really very few loud arguments. Ran errands (without much complaining). Didn't go out to meet 'friends' too often. Played cards almost every night with the family. Pretended to study.... You get the picture...Leave me alone...
Were those not your last words to me dear Sayuri?
They must have been.
I still remember that night you know...
It was really cold, and I could tell you had been crying.
I could have asked.
I should have said something.
Asked how you were doing, whether you needed anything, if everything was okay, anything!
Instead, I tilted my new hat at you and nodded.
And you smiled back.
Just a tiny little smile, but it made me really happy, you know?
That you cared enough to try and smile even though you were sad...
But I know you would have done the same for anyone who smiled at you...
Still, as you walked away in that light rain
with the dark shadows growing behind you as you walked further into the night in your black dress...
I thought that there was still some chance we could fix the mess we had made.
Thought things were finally getting better...
I didn't say a word.
And the next morning they told me you were dead.
Wait a minute Sayuri darling.
Let me pour myself a drink. Its been too long.
And where did I keep that damned matchbox?!
Sorry, where was I?
I remember the day we spent at the beach
It seems like such a long long time ago
Akane was there too, along with him.
That was nice.
We laughed a lot, All of us.
Sang silly songs all the way there and back.
And you spoke to me as if everything was fine.
As if nothing had been broken.
Like you could not see the past anymore.
And I don't know if that hurt or helped.
But I do know that I liked the way your dark hair flew about your pale face
and I liked the black dress you wore...
like the one you were wearing the last time I saw you...
Another drink Sayuri.
Just hold on.
No, I'm not drinking too much.
Just another shot...
You know what?
I wish I knew you before...
Before all the pills, and the drinking...
I know you'd be mad at me for saying this
I know you would say it would have been the same...
But would it have?
Maybe then you would have said you loved me
Maybe then I would have said the same...
Maybe I would have stopped by that night.
We wouldn't have had that stupid argument...
Do you remember that night?
I do.
I wish I didn't.
But now, I realize that it was the last time I ever heard your voice...
And so, I don't think I'll ever be able to forget.
I won't be able to forget the screaming
the thunder
the shattering of the vase (the crystal one Inari gave you for your b'day)
the yelling
the tears that filled up in your eyes - the ones you rubbed away before they ever had a chance to fall...
I'll never forget the way you looked at me that night
The anger
the disbelief
and the pain...
Just leave me alone...
Want to know a secret?
It wasn't the screaming that made me leave...
It was that look.
Your words.
I couldn't bear the thought of hurting you...
and I realized I had.
Over and over,
So, I packed up my bags and left.
Didn't even kiss you goodbye.
Left you alone, with your "substances"
Left a shaky you trying to pour a drink into a glass.
Didn't even offer to help.
Didn't call.
Didn't bat an eyelid when that other guy moved in.
Didn't say a word to you when I ever ran into you anywhere.
Didn't say anything when I saw the first bruise.
Didn't listen to the rumors...
I didn't know.
I didn't know he hurt you.
I didn't want to know.
So... I didn't.
I don't know why I smiled at you last night Sayuri.
Maybe I thought it was finally time.
Maybe it was the fact that it was raining, and I always love you more when it rains.
But I didn't say a word...
Would things be different if I had spoken to you?
Would it have changed anything?
Would they still find your body in that bathtub?
I wonder what was the last thing you thought of...
Were you scared?
Did you close your eyes when you drew that line?
Did it hurt?
Leave me alone...
Those were your last words to me...
and I wish I had never listened...
She turned around again, confused.
Left? or Right?
Up? or Down?
Here? Or There?
Shaking her head, she straightened up.
"This won't do!" she declared, to no one in particular.
"I must pick a direction!"
So, she closed her eyes and spun in a little circle with her right hand outstretched.
She opened her eyes to find herself looking at a dark forest.
"A dream!" she beamed.
A Bunny Rabbit hopped in the distance.
Maybe I'm dreaming of Alice in Wonderland.
All that spinning had made her dizzy so she lay down for a while...
But when she woke up, she heard voices.
Sitting up, she saw people were all around her; playing with the animals, swimming in the sea, sunbathing.
She shook her head sadly and got up to leave.
"Won't you stay?" asked the little blue eyed boy
She smiled at him and closed her eyes, spinning again.
Maybe she would just wake up this time...
But it was always a dream.
She never woke up
And she always had to leave...
She looked up at the streetlight.
It seemed to shine into her soul.
Giggling softly, she tried pushing the beam away, but it didn't move.
She glared at it for a while and then slowly stepped out of its range.
Twirling, she laughed, and a lone star twinkled in the distant night sky.
She took a few steps forward, still smiling, and then froze, trying to remember why she was here.
She stood still for a long time.
At the center of the crossing.
The traffic lights fascinated her, especially when they changed colors.
Colors.
She liked colors.
Didn't she?...
She blinked, and then started walking again.
It wasn't exactly a straight line, but it wasn't a drunken walk either.
She remembered she was supposed to look out for policemen, but she didn't remember why.
Was she supposed to go to them?
Hide from them?
Ask them something?
Run as fast as she could?
Confused, she lit a cigarette.
"Smoking. Always smoking." she scolded herself like she was supposed to.
No.
Wait.
Wasn't that someone else?
Another drag, and a silly smile lit her face.
And she twirled again, dark hair clashing with falling rain.
Her laughter echoed softly in empty alleys
and she went around in little circles till she couldn't breathe anymore.
Tired knees hit the wet grass as she collapsed...
and a sob escaped her throat.
"Why do you cry, fair child?" he asked
As he knelt beside the girl
"I only want my memory
Its lost somewhere in this world"
They searched far and wide, but the memory was truly lost.
And then one day, it was already time for frost
So she shooed him and his sparrows to summer
and he cursed at the maiden as she bid him farewell...
But she hates him not
neither does she love
She only needs her memories to build
her stairway to the heavens above...
Till she finds those run-away memories, she needs to make new ones
So...
She laughs at the streetlights
coz they remind her of the sun
and how it will eventually destroy her.
And that could be called a memory, couldn't it?
