07 Feb 2009

07th February 2009.

Time just flies by doesn't it?
Sometimes anyway.
Sometimes, it just refuses to move.

And you find yourself stuck in one single moment for all eternity...

I was reading through some of my posts from a lifetime ago when I found this.

So much has changed
And so much remains the same...

I don't know which bothers me more.

A rainless part of twelve. Cold doesn’t seem the same anymore. And now, again I stand where I once stood.

The same, but just so different.

A few more days. Then it would have been a year. Ravens shriek and robins sing. And I miss the fire of the stars. 66. Should have got further.

The name’s Bond. James Bond. And then we all fall down.

To the end of the bottomless pit.

How many special people change?

Do they remain the same people? Are they still special?

If so, then why were there never any phone calls?

Why couldn’t there be any conversation?

“Yes darling, everything’s fine. I’m ok. How have you been?”

Senseless. Pointless.

“No, I’m not sleepy. It’s the drugs.”

Hurtful. True.

Click. Light. Drag.

Over and over.

Till everything is on the other side of the haze.

And if you concentrate hard enough, the voices stay there too. So you listen to none except the ones in your head.

“No. It’s not coz I was avoiding you.”

Lies.

Mine.

Songs that sing themselves.

Why have you forsaken me?

God doesn’t forsake any of his children.

And then darkness claims the fire. And she dances away happily into the cold.

And I know these voices in my head are mine alone.

“Don’t isolate yourself.”

I’m not. I’m jus isolating everyone else.

And they all fall down.

I just go higher. And higher.

What goes up has got to fall.

Original post - 27th January 2008.

Good enough?

So take care what you ask of me,
Because I can't say no.

Evanescence

Missed?

Flicker
Flicker

Watch out for the blue screen.

Visions are all good, but they can't ever be real no?
And the ferry man has to be paid, or you're stuck between worlds my darling.
Stuck between worlds.

If you are leaving for ever and ever
remember to take your coat
Because it's been raining
and raining
and raining

So, run along
and don' worry
You won't be missed
Won't be missed at all
at all
at all...

Sharing

She hates it when he asks those questions.
He knows the answer.
He knows that they can not go back.
There's nowhere for them to return to!!!

She sips again, and waits for the familiar feeling.
Warmth in the cold cruel air she was forced to breathe.

She sways as she stands and somehow makes her way to him.
He's sitting in one corner of the roof, fingers curled lightly around a cigarette that he offers before she can even ask.

She tries to smile, but realizes it's confusing trying to remember.
So she just sits besides him and they watch the sky lighten.

God

God doesn't care.
He doesn't, doesn't, doesn't.

Save yourself my friends and neighbours.
Save your friends and neighbours, dear friends and neighbours.

God isn't stoppping by today.

Untitled

You have a place in my dream
Walking cycle
Weeping dog
Come aboard
I welcome you all
Ignore the crumbling ceiling
It just won't stay the right way up
And don't pay any attention to the screaming you know is in your head
That's just the terrible teenage twins, in trouble again, though they're dead
But still here.

Just keep walking
and you can all stay with me
We shall sing and laugh into the night
and I won't expect anything from you

Was I not mad ta you
a million multi-flavored lifetimes ago?
Can't be sure
Well, it doesn't really matter anymore...

So sit down.
Talk to me.
Tell me about the places you have been.
Tell me about places where I shall go.
I see green.
i see blood.
I hear screams
and I know it's all a dream
But I'm still falling
and falling
and falling
and I want to wake up before I crash

So sit down, you lonely ant
and be my friend.

Golden

Butterflies of black
You speak of death
But the ones that are golden always scared me more
So much more...