Lessons?

I learned that

Sometimes when you snap at everyone around you and hate the world, it's just yourself you're mad at.

Sometimes you need someone on the outside to tell you that.

When you do something because you're afraid of hurting someone, most of the time you're pretty scared for yourself too. Because you don't know what hurting them will do to you.

You can't run away... No matter how far you go, what you're running from ends up right behind you.

You are much stronger than you think.
And much weaker than you have to be.

No matter how many things change, some things always stay the same.

These things are things you always knew, but that one funny morning they can all hit you like a sky diving blue whale.

The world is rather dramatic.

The number of coincidences we all live with are too many and too strange to be just coincidences.

Sometimes you can love someone for who they are to you and at the same time loathe them for who they pretend to be.

There is nothing or no one you can not live without.

Decisions can still be good decisions even if the reasons are completely messed up.

The "smart" people you know are often pretty dumb.

Superficiality is not given the credit it deserves.

I like drawing flowers.

Posts like this one sound like corny forwards, but that doesn't make them lies.
Just annoying.

Later...

Sympathy unavailable

I'll cry with you if I have to
I'll try and make you laugh
I'll stand by you if you feel alone
I'll be your company
I'll sit with you when you want to cry
I'll try and convince you that your life is worth living

But if you want sympathy, go somewhere else.

Don't expect me to feel sorry for you
Don't expect me to try and snatch that rope away from your hands
Don't expect me to cry because you think you can't "be strong anymore"
Don't expect me to beg you to stop hurting yourself in the ways I do to myself just so you can make a trade

I hate you when you get like this

You want to kill yourself?
You want to hurt?
You want to torture your own mind?
Lie to yourself?
Cry yourself to sleep?
Cling on?

Fine.
Go ahead and fucking do it.
Don't tell me your grand plans.

You want to die?
Then don't give me the gun to keep.
I want NO part in this.
Just leave me alone.
I need no more nightmares.

You are weak and pathetic.
And you fall further in my eyes every single day

The joker was right
Even the best of us fall
Well, you know what I've realized?
I never liked the best amongst us much anyway.